To Everything, Turn, Turn, Turn

Embarrassed is an understatement.  It has been close to two years since my last post.  Could I have truly been so busy with all the importance of my life to put this on the back burner?  Well, yes.... I guess I did.  I did.

So much has happened since the last post.  "So", being a relative term.  The flashback of changes that have occurred and the comparison of the person I am now to the person I was nearly two years ago leaves even more questions.


Since November, 2012 I have:
1.) Changed departments where I work
2.) Enjoyed a promotion in the new position
3.) Experienced the interview process for management at my company
4.) Learned the lesson of grace despite adversity
5.) Finally figured out that it isn't all about me
6.) Became my granddaughter's primary caregiver
7.) Spent more time with my husband than I had in the past few years
8.) Competed and judged in my first CrossFit competition
9.) Worked more than I ever had in my life up to this point
10.) Lost people I love and admire through death, geography or circumstance

And those are just a few.

So, when do you cross that bridge to stop doing something you enjoy doing because time is shorter and shorter?  Well, for me it was when the pressure increased.  Pressure to learn something new and know it well.  Pressure, although, it is also joy, to give a little girl a childhood she deserves... no matter what.  Pressure to be there for the people who depend on me to be there, whether they know they do or not.  Whatever the reason.... I didn't post.

Well, that changes today!  After all, this is therapy for me and if someone happens to read it and like it... well, that's gravy on top.

The questions I have about myself may or may not be answered in this blog.  But there is value in the journey that inspires me to write.  I hope you enjoy my journey, too.

SHE'S BACK!!!

So Very Blessed

I know.... Everybody's thankful this time of year. I mean, it's Thanksgiving! What's not to be thankful for? I could run the list of the usual things we all are thankful for and most of you would agree with me. I could talk about my wonderful family, immediate and extended. I could talk about my home and material possessions, all of which are not even mine. They were entrusted to me by my Lord. And for all of them I am thankful. I have thought about so many people who are and have been in my life and how much I am thankful for each person.

I had a conversation with my manager this week and she said something profound. So profound, I told her I was stealing it for this post. She said, "I am most thankful for the ability to change". Oh, the facets of this one! God created this in everyone. It is an essential part of repentance. Which is one of the necessary steps of salvation. This could lead into another discussion, entirely. But I thought long and hard about what she said. And I could not agree more.

The ability to change... hmmmm. Boy did that hit home for me. This has been the year of changes. Whether by choice or necessity, I have made many changes this year. I have taken on roles that I never even considered before. I no longer have children, but young adults. I no longer have a job but a career. My husband's business changed dramatically this year. I had to change to accept that and to be a helper to him. I have changed sizes, my mind (on some issues), and my heart.

Change is exciting and scary. The ability to change is comforting. I am so very thankful that I have the ability to change because if I did not have that I would remain stagnant in my life and never progress. I would be a lost soul with no hope of redemption. I would be miserable. So thank you Lord and Father for giving me the ability to change.

I pray His continued blessings on you all. May the ability to change be a gift we are forever thankful to have. Happy Thanksgiving!